“I am early in my story, but I believe I will stretch out into eternity, and in heaven I will reflect upon these early days, these days when it seemed God was down a dirt road, walking toward me. Years ago He was a swinging speck in the distance; now He is close enough I can hear His singing. Soon I will see the lines on His face.” – Blue Like Jazz, Donald Miller
There is much to say about a life – it can be a journey, a story, an adventure, a nightmare, a treading of water. You pick your adjective. I don’t know about you, but for me…it is the unknown that makes me excited. Not knowing what tomorrow will bring, being open to any possibility, and being in a place that is unfamiliar. While one part of me thrives on this excitement, there is another part of me that completely dreads it. A bigger part of me, a darker part of me. It is a tugging of heartstrings that leaves me quiet, confused, unsettled – and alone. How do I learn to listen to the light, to accept the season I am in and not let the negative knock me off my feet? I may never have an answer to that, but you know what? That is okay. Because sometimes it’s about the struggle, the adversity, the unfavorable, the “how am I going to get through this?” feeling. Because without this, I would not appreciate the good. The “life cannot get any better than this” feeling. When you hit the bottom, then starts the ascent. I would rather live a life of struggle and challenge than a life of complacency and comfort.
It’s funny – the more I look back on my life, the more I can’t stop looking ahead. Three years ago God was a joke to me. But looking back on it now, His essence was present throughout my life – even when I didn’t know it. He was walking towards me, asking urgently to meet halfway. Now, He is the reason I breathe and breathe meaningfully.
Soon, we will see face to face.
This blog will serve as a canvas – of thoughts, of travels, of drums, and hopefully, of inspiration. I encourage you to be vulnerable, to share what is important to you with others, and not look back.
